A Father's Devotion

Why am I suffering so much,
Why do I go to such far lengths,
Why must my soul be torn apart for one life…for one life

Why do I risk my sanity, My Sanity!
Why do I put my pride and shame on a chopping block,
How can I stand to be molested, be down and shot ,
For the sake of one life….One life?

Am I a mad man!?
Have I finally lost all rational!?
Have the pressures of daily life finally caught off guard
And stabbed me in the head, and delightfully waiting for my death?
All for the sake of a child I have never met?
All for the sake of a child I never wanted!?
All for the sake of doing what I know in my heart is right?
WHY DAMNIT, WHY DO I SUFFER THIS PAIN??!!!

I suffer this pain, because this innocent one isn’t the source,
I suffer this pain, because this little one has non knowledge of me,
I suffer this because her Mother, and her Family know nothing about me,
I suffer this because I want my child to know the love of her mommy and daddy,

I suffer on because, mommy hates daddy, and loves to see him squirm,
Mommy was to castrate him, and run him through like a worm on a hook,
Mommy has told lies, mommy lies, oh how her mommy lies,
Just so that she can taste the sorrow the flows from daddy’s broken and beaten heart.

God Please grant me strength,
God place help me bear my burden,
God please strike down these adversities I face,
So there might be some good left of me for my child to see.