My mind begins to blow,
My savage nature begins to flow,
As eons of instinctial behaviour burts out of me,
To pursue the prize which has eluded my eyes and grasp far too long, far too often.
I fantasize, I desire, I can taste and even feel my desired trophy
As if floatig all around me, observing me watching me,
Waiting for the right moment to pounce and entrap me,
Or to escape and and observe I or some other poor soul for another day.
My query is fierce,
It has been known to bring joy or sorrow,
Oh how I desire to hang it as a trophy in my study,
Or a captive prisoner in a secluded habitat where I may choose who may or may not
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My emotions cut deep to my core,
Ripping open new pains that I thought I had felt before,
Sending signals of grief, shame, anger and hate
rushing toward to focus of my minds eye.
U cant contain it,
Holding on by a thread, my mind is filled dread, depression and sorry,
I cant breath,
Im heaving and panting gasping for breath, but all I take in are screams.
I cant forget it,
I try to bottle it all inside,
I try to hide, suppress, and hold it all, but I cant
I feel week.
Im trapped in a prison of my mind,
Tormented by jailers,
Beaten by my dark side,
I try to cry and scream, but
My dear, sweet & loving friend
my love for you will never end.
My love for you is like the sea,
Vast, deep, and strong,
with the ability to support you whenever you need, comfort, a caring heart, or just a shoulder to lean on.
Though our relationship is rough, like the waves at high tide,
just remember,
no matter what,
that at sunset,
our love will triumph over all
My Philosophy
God...man....
two of whom are connected so close yet so far apart;
two so unique, so strong of will,
it can be said they share a bond.
Some say GOD is man,
some say he is a spirit,
some say he is a being who created heaven earth, the sea and the sky,
some say he is a myth.
But is say regardless
of all that they say
there is one thing they say that I believe
man is a creature created from the earth
to return to the earth;
from dust to return to dust.
Yet there is one thing that this creator did
that no one else could ever do
He gives us three fires that shine brighter that any other ever seen.
Faith, hope,
Desire: What every lover by killadbill, literature
Literature
Desire: What every lover
I lay here a blubbering mess,
missing your smile,
your smile which is a sight that can
only be matched by the glory of the sun, or the allure of the moon.
When I lay here alone,
I can feel you in my arms,
As though we lay together,
Thinking of nothing more than being with each other.
I remember each kiss I ever gave you,
on every part of your honey sweet skin,
the lust i have for you swelling,
but never leading to sin.
I remember each touch,
and each kiss,
each loving embrace ,
I only saw you yesterday,
but i find myself wanting for you again.
Bold, opaque, full of darkness,
Doubtful, hard headed, full of hate,
Twilight without moonlight in the sky,
such was my life, such was my pain.
Fruitful, love filled, shy and strong,
Imaginative, freaky, and maybe a little fly,
Pure, clean, and sensitive to touch,
such was my love, and such was her life before she met me.
Within a void, we too did greet,
Eye to eye we two did meet,
and in an instant did we both find,
the needed yin, to balance out the yang.
Now the nights have bright full moons,
Boldness is now meekness, and shy is now confident,
What once was opaque, is now made clear,
Because of her love, I no longer
Some say love is verb,
not an emotion that is truly felt.
Some say love is blind,
because the one you fall in love with may not love you back.
Some say love is cruel,
because like many before them thought they were in love,
felt all the emotions depicted by media,
and assumed the best.
But when they were hurt, scorned, and reviled,
they came up with these notions;
depicting that love never cruelty existed.
What is love?
Love is the truth,
Love is like the Caribbean Sun,
Blazing bright in the hearts of individuals,
Love is Blind,
for you can never tell who you will fall in love with,
Love is a verb, but it is also God,
Wailing goes on in my mind,
and my heart slowly weeps,
As I long to be with you,
Even when we meet in our creep.
With the fall of shadows,
And the nights sky our audience,
We dance,
We revel,
we embrace our passion.
As we partake of this forbidden fruit.
Our eyes fill with passion,
our souls are set ablaze,
As we two, seemingly become one,
In a seemingly forbidden embrace.
The blows that society throws weaken me,
Bruised from the `Sticks and stones` are projected at my frame,
All manner or `botheration` hunting me down,
Even in the seemingly safe realm of dreams.
When my back is against the wall,
And all of my hope has faded,
I restore my hope by looking within my soul,
To a place which is odd even to me.
This place within my soul,
Fills me with the strength and pride of a Mountain,
Standing strong,
like a shield against this worlds fury.
Like a mighty protector,
never moving, or falling for anyone.
Because this my health is restored,
and my heart is made bolder,
my faith in my self and my
Current Residence: Miramar, Florida Favourite genre of music: Soul and reggae Favourite photographer: n/a Favourite style of art: not sure Operating System: Linux MP3 player of choice: my computer Shell of choice: Bash Wallpaper of choice: Jpegs Skin of choice: my own Favourite cartoon character: right now Naruto Personal Quote: Life's [messed] up enough without you adding to it
Favourite Visual Artist
right now Strype
Favourite Movies
Too many, but to name a few Hotel Ruwanda, lucky number sleven, catch a fire, man of fire
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Musiq, John Legend, nickel back, bowling for soup
Favourite Writers
Robin Cook,Eric Jerome Dicky...there are others, but n/a for now
Favourite Games
Mario brothers( any on really) or Sonic
Favourite Gaming Platform
Playstation
Tools of the Trade
my mind and whatever i can use to print my thoughts
Other Interests
Sports, reading, Art,and anything to do with philosophy, current affairs, anime and food
Wow, what a long year. Booted from school, stuck with a dead end job at a University (ironic i know) and i'm single. Well i guess the single thing is good, seeing everything else is raising my blood pressure. c'est l vi!!! Just gotta get b ack to doing what i do best. taking pics, living life, and writing. Maybe a sketch here and there. I'll also see if i can't update this log more often
Its been a while since i updated this thing. But then, i really haven't had much to chat about. But with a new President, a new year, and (no pun intended) new hope abound, i just couldn't help but to write something down on 0's and 1's.
I just want to wish the new US President, all the best in dealing with the issues at hand. And i pray that the US people will be there to support and pass on their wisdom and knowledge to help this President's Inauguration and Tenure in office, a smooth one.
Oh, and i hope that in 2 years time we will all be screaming that sanctimonious limerick," four more years!!!"
All i have to say about this movie is Damn McLovin'. Chicka Chika yeah!!! This movie was a great coming of age summer comedy. i enjoyed it's comedic styles very much. mind you this is american pie...but for nerds. Well to be more politically correct, social outcasts. Regardless of how you'd like to classify them, this movie is one of the best for the summer.
Another movie that should be condemed to the furthest depths is WAR. i was so disappointed that i nearly punched myself in the for watching it. and keep in mind, i went into this film, with no expectations, which just added to teh disappointment.
So in conclusion, SuperBad, SuperGood.